AV not that early

Every month since TTC, I do not have the chance of doubting whether I have conceive or not. Why? That's because it will come first thing in the morning. However, today something unusual happen. I've been up for 3 hours and yet it shows no sign yet. Although I have said that I will not try this two months till after my Bali trip, who am I to kid? I couldn't help but secretly wish that maybe some miracle WILL happen somehow. I don't know, maybe I'm too obsess with the idea it's hard to put it aside. Maybe it's still too early to say anything. There was once it was delayed by a day. So I guess it I will have to either wait a few more days (anxiously) or get the disappointment at the very TODAY.

update: one hour after I wrote this post, it started to give me red signs. somehow I still feel a pinch of disappointment. I consoled myself saying I can still go for my Bali trip

Stop for a while

The reason I had not updated this blog for so long...mainly is because I had something else in hand that needs my fullest attention. Apart from this, it was also because we will be heading to Bali in July. Thus we decided to stop trying for this moment. If we happen to hit the jackpot without trying so hard, as we did for the past few months, it will be a bonus. But then, if the jackpot strike, that only means we will have to cancel our trip which we had almost paid for everything, plane ticket and hotel stay. We had been planning for this trip for almost half a year, with me doing most of the research and booking if not all. This will also be our honeymoon trip. Not only will we not have honeymoon trip if I actually conceive, it will also means that it's impossible for the future.

We shall see in a week or two times if my 'Aunt' still miss me and pay me a visit then.