@ week 12

How was I feeling then?
Just a week after I was told to be 'overweight', it increased another 0.5kg. I shrieked a bit when I stepped onto the weighing machine. While sitting down, waiting for the nurse to be done with recording the data, I peep onto the scale and saw that it was actually offset by 0.5kg. Phew...not my fault la..

Two days after the last weighing, my weight dropped back to original 55kg (I made sure the needle was pointing correctly this time). Which means I have successfully maintain it for 2weeks. But why are my pants still getting tighter?

Btw, I've received my online ordered clothes from http://www.kachfashion.com/. They will be my fashion cum maternity clothes.

Absolutely love the blue one. So huge at the tummy, bet it can last thru my pregnancy period. The cloth is very rough though. The yellow one is sweet, with roomy belly area but it's slightly tight at the chest area for me. The last one of course won't get me thru my pregnancy but my hand got itchy to see such a classy piece. I always hearted classy piece. Have to wear it more often, else when the tummy grows bigger, I'll have to wait after I give birth. The color that I received it so-not-the-pic-color. It's more of a gold rather than gray :S

@ week 11

How was I feeling then?
This week has to be the week I felt the heaviest so far in my pregnancy. As usual I went for Gov Clinic check up and excitedly waiting for a yummy breakfast after that. Manatau, the nurse gave me a devastating news, that I gained 1.5kg in ONE month. OMG! I mean, ya my tummy is getting slightly bulky, and so is my butt. But how on earth can I start to grow at this rate? Averagely, a preggie will put on 0.5kg a month for the first 5 months and subsequently 0.5kg a week after that. Thanks to the nurse, my appetite for a hearty bowl of curry mee is gone. The worst, I'm suppose to go back twice a week to monitor my weight. Such a hassle.

When I went home and told Mum, she asked me not to be silly. Gov Clinic is monitoring the weight because that's the only way the can monitor the growth of baby. They won't do any ultrascan. Apparently, Sis's SIL had the same problem and she resorted to eating too lil. Ended up her baby is too small a size when was born.

Baby @ Week 10

This is the first printout, showing baby is just a clump at the top, measuring 24.7mm

@ week 10

How was I feeling then?

It has to be the best week in my life. We get to see the baby again, but this time I don't see it as a dot anymore. I saw a life, with a heart beat DupDupDupDup in my tummy. Previously I was constantly worried since it was still at early stage where you couldn't feel any movement inside yet. Thus don't know if baby is OK or not, still there or gone....all those negative thought of what if. It doesn't help that when I do research, those miscarriage articles kept popping up and so were the blogs. Whenever I had mild cramp, my mind would immediately switch to negative thought. But at that very day, sure the scan, not only can I see the heart beating so fast, I could also see the arms and legs moving. The feeling is incredible. I was on cloud9 the whole day.

Went to visit our godson, Ben and it suddenly brought back what a medium once said to me. He told us that our Chinese DOB shows that we'll have 3 children in our life but a look on Hubs palm, he said the child line on his palm shows that Hubs only have the fate of godson but not own kids. My heart almost shattered. Luckily the medium helped us and now I'm growing this precious thing in my tummy.

Ben's mom was very nice to offer us the stuff Ben used to use when he was small, playpen, napkins, stroller, mattress. They were saying,"We got this, and this and this....u can use, no need to buy...if u don't mind la." Of course we won't mind, all those were still in good condition. With most of the things being sponsored, we can actually save a lot.

@ week 9

How was I feeling then?

My appetite started to make it's way home. Which means I was starting to be able to consume my usual lunch at home. With that my waistline is growing ever since.

W and M came the other day to enjoy laksa, one of the forbidden food for me. Surprisingly after listening to their quite logical explanation on why pregnant should be allowed to succumb to her craving, Hubs allowed me my very first bowl of LAKSA! It was said that if I were to suppress my craving, it's the beginning of saying NO to baby, which is not good for their emotional. Thanks to them also, I might be able to get my long craved Sunshine market TOMYAM *big grin*

This week, MIL cooked herbs chicken thigh for dinner. One for me and one for SIL. She asked me to take the bigger one, and leave the smaller one for SIL cause now I'm eating for two...haha..I almost chuckled. I didn't really thought of eating for two..not yet.

This week, Hubs made a surprise visit home one afternoon, packed with lotsa bread from Continential. He drove all the way home from office, just to deliver the bread. That was very sweet of him and a very sweet surprise for me to see him at that hour.

This week, suddenly I tasted ikan bilis bun in my mouth (a thought, a usual thing even when I'm not pregnant) at 11.30PM. Before I told him he can get it from High-5 bun, he creatively thought of getting a plain bun and some nasi lemak gravy to stuff inside. I must admit I didn't thought of that also. After giving him the idea that he can get from High-5 bun, Hubs drove around Air Itam, went to at least 5 places before he's able to get ONE miserable ikan bilis bun for me. Most of the places he went has all the High-5 bun, all except the ikan bilis type. He completed his ordeal in almost 1hour and I only managed to finish half the bun.

@ week 8

How was I feeling then?

My gassy problem was getting worse at this stage. I could not even eat 10 spoons of rice without feeling bloated and suffered. It was making me phobia to eat. By this time also I get to know my baby is going to be a 'westerner'...loves to eat only bread, western food, extremely love cheese...and started to loathe oriental food. I can wallop two homemade burgers but I can't get a plate of rice clean. An oversea colleague of Hubs suddenly asked if I was expecting when she came to visit the other day. Was it my blouse, or was it because of my growing chubby face? She said it was the glow on my face. Well, it was quite late at night and I wasn't sure if the glow was really a pregnancy glow or just oily face..hmm..

@ week 7

How was I feeling then?

I suddenly realised that my boobs are not slightly bigger. They have outgrown my home bras. Gosh! Wearing them were like two pieces of clothes sewn together just to cover my nipples. Even my normal day bras are getting tighter and seems 'overflow' when wore them with my usual Baby-T. Most of the shirts that I bought looks like what they called, "Balut cempedak". From my side profile, you can see that my boobs are as long as my whole palm, which measured up a normal ruler long. That does not include the body frame yet.

@ week 6

How was I feeling then?

I was constantly hungry but couldn't take much. My appetite seems to have disappear. And I'm very selective on my food. Those MIL's cooking, it's turning me off. I used to heart steam fish and will have mostly a whole fish to share with Hubs for either lunch or dinner but the sight of fish just kill my appetite. I know fish is not only good, it's important for baby but for this moment, I just craved for the forbidden foods....spicy and sour stuff. It's just killing me.

Hubs and I went to shop for baby posters but after searching thru MPH and Popular Bookstore, I didn't get one that I like. Where are all those cute babies??? We diverted our attention towards pregnancy books and found one that was considered the best among our choice. It has been our baby bible ever since.

MIL has been bugging me to get a pair of good sandals. The ones I had were cheap, flimsy sandals from either Vincci or Nose. So out we went shopping again for the comfy one. My choice was either Scholl, Hush Puppies or Crocs. After surveying and trying out numerous pair, I came to a conclusion that:

Scholl: quite 'aunty' fashion
Hush Puppies: Narrow sole (I have fat sole that will spill out when press downward)
Crocs: OK but it's quite expensive for a sandal of that kind.

At last I settled for a pair of capri

A casual conversation between me and Hubs, leaded MIL to sacrifice her weekend outing and busied herself in the kitchen the whole morning. The food I craved was Nasi Lemak but then after Hubs reminded her that I can't take spicy food, I ended up only can have soy meat and rice. Argh...that's totally not so nice.

@ week 5

How was I feeling then?

No major change. In terms of eating, I could still eat the usual stuff, i.e. oriental, western, Jap, etc. I was slightly more sleepy these days compare to before. In terms of physical wise, my weight has dropped without me knowing when. All the while my weight yoyo between 54-56kg. But the time I knew and weigh, I was actually 53kg. But then, one thing for sure was my boobs swell like nobody business. Before my period was due, it has already swollen and been a pain to touch. I dismissed it as another PMS. As for my tummy, it has the usual pre period cramp, which was another thing that I brushed it off as PMS too. But now thinking back, it was two of the common pregnancy symptom, which I totally missed out.

How about Hubs?

He has started to do some research on what to eat/not to eat. How cute. He even called up a good friend of us (a very qualified Doc) to ask his advise. Hubs started talking to baby almost every night. How cute!

First Check Up @ 070409

I still remember vividly the first check up after I took the test myself. It was very early in the morn that Hubs went to place the card, so that we can get first in the line again. We did not tell MIL beforehand and when she caught Hubs sneaking back while on her way to market, her question marks began to form. At first she just asked if Hubs was out for the normal morning jog. But she just has her way of asking that I couldn't avoid telling her the truth. And so I told her the real thing plus that my period has not come YET..which made her ?? grew a whole lot more..hehe..

Well, she did not pursue further...from me BUT when I went inside the bathroom, she barked into our room and woke Hubs up, and questioned him left and right. I had anticipated this earlier on, so I had already made Hubs promised to keep quiet about the actual (tested + stuff) until we get confirmation from Doc. Hubs merely told her that it was a follow up check up. Erm...whether she believe it onot, she'll have to wait till after the check up.

We were entertained by the nurse before we get to meet Doc. What was funny was that she asked me, "Ambil ubat (Taken medicine)?" as I was prescribed with clomid the visit before. She must have thought that I was there for the follow up, after taken clomid. My answer? "Belum (Haven't)." I felt funny because the baby was there without the help of clomid...which is FANTASTIC. Doc came and did an ultra scan on my tummy. All we could see was a dot on the screen. I was thinking to myself, "Is this my baby or is it just another polyp thingy cause they seriously look the same". He further did vaginal check just to get a better look on the dot. I get a glimpse of Hubs face and I could see that he's beaming with delight, to see his junior actually starting to grow. I was actually still not relief after meeting Doc, cause from what he said, he can see that foetus inside but will not know for sure if it's safely in the uterus....that's something disturbing.

All in all I was still excited about it and couldn't wait to tell the whole world. But I can only share the news with my parents and in-laws. The first to get the news was of course none other than my MIL. When I called her, she was super cool and calm, just advising me not to eat spicy and sour too much. I bet she must have jumped on the bed and somersault a few rounds after putting down the phone. Next on my list was Mom. The first thing she asked me was, it is a twins? *Slap forehead*

I'm officially 3 months

After been keeping hush hush for so long, I finally can tell the whole world

I'M PREGNANT!

Yea...it's true. Today is my last day of my first trimester. The first 3 months are usually the most risky, and hence, most people choose not to say anything. And the according to the elders, baby will be 'small gas' and might decide to leave if we tell the others. So we decided to only tell our parents.

From the previous posts, you would have read my frustration and disappointment. So I decided to take it easy that month and didn't even think of rushing to toilet to test when my period decided to stop. Day 1 passed, Day 2 passed, came Day 3,4,5...well, last month it was late for 5 days and still it was just a false alarm. Although I had wanted so much to believe that this time, it has stop for real. I just couldn't bring myself to face another disappointment. So I still delayed the test. It wasn't until it was the 6th day morning, while Hubs was still sleeping...that I quietly slipped out of bed, secretly brought the brand new, leftover test kit from last month (wrapped inside my towel) and went to bathroom as usual.

With a deep breathe, I pee-ed onto the stick and waited patiently. I thought it would take forever to see the two lines, just like last month. How wrong was I. Within seconds, they appeared before my eyes and my jaws just dropped in disbelief. Could it be? Am I truly...? I tried to control my excitement. I wanted to pretend nothing had happen and continue to take a bath but I just couldn't. Immediately after wrapping myself in towel, I rush back into the bedroom. I put on a serious face (trying hard not to give my ear to ear grin), hide the stick below my pillow and woke Hubs up. I bet he was worried when he saw my face. He kept on asking what's wrong. I lied down on the bed, with my back facing him. Until I was sure he was at the right distant, I pulled out this.

He didn't say a word...just gave me a wide smile and a deep hug. And I went back to continue my bath...haha..That morning, we went to have breakfast and brought another test kit, just to confirm. He urged me to give it another try, right at his office but I was thinking, usually it has to be the first urine in the morn. Will it show just a line this time? It took me quite some time before I thought…what the heck, let’s try. Pee-ed again, dripped it on the right hole and waited with my heart pounding. Tada!!!

The result was the same. It's confirmed. I'm going to be a mum. I'm having something growing in my tummy at that very second. I went out and secretly showed Hubs the result, which ended up both of us smiling and getting curious look from his colleagues. All we could do at that time was more research on the Internet and waited patiently for the very first check up the next day.