I'm officially 3 months

After been keeping hush hush for so long, I finally can tell the whole world

I'M PREGNANT!

Yea...it's true. Today is my last day of my first trimester. The first 3 months are usually the most risky, and hence, most people choose not to say anything. And the according to the elders, baby will be 'small gas' and might decide to leave if we tell the others. So we decided to only tell our parents.

From the previous posts, you would have read my frustration and disappointment. So I decided to take it easy that month and didn't even think of rushing to toilet to test when my period decided to stop. Day 1 passed, Day 2 passed, came Day 3,4,5...well, last month it was late for 5 days and still it was just a false alarm. Although I had wanted so much to believe that this time, it has stop for real. I just couldn't bring myself to face another disappointment. So I still delayed the test. It wasn't until it was the 6th day morning, while Hubs was still sleeping...that I quietly slipped out of bed, secretly brought the brand new, leftover test kit from last month (wrapped inside my towel) and went to bathroom as usual.

With a deep breathe, I pee-ed onto the stick and waited patiently. I thought it would take forever to see the two lines, just like last month. How wrong was I. Within seconds, they appeared before my eyes and my jaws just dropped in disbelief. Could it be? Am I truly...? I tried to control my excitement. I wanted to pretend nothing had happen and continue to take a bath but I just couldn't. Immediately after wrapping myself in towel, I rush back into the bedroom. I put on a serious face (trying hard not to give my ear to ear grin), hide the stick below my pillow and woke Hubs up. I bet he was worried when he saw my face. He kept on asking what's wrong. I lied down on the bed, with my back facing him. Until I was sure he was at the right distant, I pulled out this.

He didn't say a word...just gave me a wide smile and a deep hug. And I went back to continue my bath...haha..That morning, we went to have breakfast and brought another test kit, just to confirm. He urged me to give it another try, right at his office but I was thinking, usually it has to be the first urine in the morn. Will it show just a line this time? It took me quite some time before I thought…what the heck, let’s try. Pee-ed again, dripped it on the right hole and waited with my heart pounding. Tada!!!

The result was the same. It's confirmed. I'm going to be a mum. I'm having something growing in my tummy at that very second. I went out and secretly showed Hubs the result, which ended up both of us smiling and getting curious look from his colleagues. All we could do at that time was more research on the Internet and waited patiently for the very first check up the next day.

Sneak peak into what's coming next

They said a picture speaks a thousand words..so here you go. I'll just let the picture speaks for itself.
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Don't eat this, don't eat that..

You know when they say if you are planning to conceive you have to do this, do that...eat this, eat that....don't this don't that? Well, I'm not going to take it so seriously anymore. I'm just so sick of trying and waiting for nothing every month. And you know what, all this pantang larang is only making me more stress out. Giving me hope and taking it away every month. I see so many couple had theirs unplanned...need I add 'easily'? Here I am..taking every precaution just to get disappointment. So from now on...don't tell me "cannot eat tomyam", "cannot drink ice water", "cannot go jogging, just do normal walk"...To hell with NO tomyam, NO kopi peng, NO seafood, NO laksa..

Yesterday lunch when I ordered Neslo peng, Hubs reminded me that I was not suppose to take ice. I just shoot back, " All this is making me more stressful. I thought you ask me to take it easy". Haha...so syiok!

Last month

It all went so well...at least I thought so. My menses was late. The most I've experienced was a delay of ONE day. And that never leave me a chance to get overexcited. The next morn sure will see the hint of blood stripe on my discharge. I had so much discharge a week before that practically one panty liner was not enough for a day, so my hope was getting higher. I was scheduled to be on flight 2 days after my predicted period due. Due to this delay, I missed the flight for fear that it might not be able to take the air pressure. Hubs was anxious as well, always asking how I'm doing. The 3 testers that I used were still showing the same disappointing ONE line. As there was still no sign of my period, I was still clinging on to that very slim hope.

At last, my worst fear came. This time, it was late for five days!! FIVE FREAKING ANXIOUSLY WAITING FOR TWO LINES DAY!!! It was the most unbearable thing that I had to face. I cried buckets of tears and was totally down. That false alarm was just too much of a joke for me. I believe Hubs does not take it easily too but he has to look strong for me. At times I really couldn't understand why am I the only one who is taking this thing so seriously. He was like, "The time will come." Arghh...

Update

Although I've not been updating this blog, never had I stop my mission to get myself conceive. My dream of being a mommy still stand tall. Thus, I've been doing things without updating them here. Call me superstitious, but I'll not risk not being able to achieve my mission. You'll not be hearing anything from me until I'm in my trimester. (No I'm not hinting I've tested positive by now)

Getting Pregnant: 2nd date with Doc(S)

I met a traditional practitioner while attending the 'vacation' course the other day. I actually grabbed him to sit beside me (well, it was fated) during dinner. And popped questions in between mouthful of delicious food. I told him bout the blood clog found in my uterus, which caused me spotting on the 7th day on my period cycle after it stopped. He commented that my womb was weak. So I took the step to book an appointment with him straight away, then only I seek Hubs opinion :p

With that, we went to check Hubs sperm count first(RM80). We went back to the same Hospital that we went last time. The result showed that his sperm count was normal but the mobility was low. Was it because he did not release it for too long, it became tadpole already? Or was it because he was sick that time? We didn't get an answer for that.....for Doc questioned him not releasing it too long *blush* As for me, the blood clog was not as big and visible as last time. He proceed to prescribed me a fertility medicine (RM77.50) to increase my chances of getting pregnant but I was doubtful to consume it, not at this moment...we have better plan.

So off we went to BM to see this new Dr. G. He shared a few cases of infertility that he successfully treated, and we were very impressed. He did the usual gesture, the 'bong mek' (finger to palm pulse reading). He then examined my eyes and palm. He said I was too stressed, easily stress to be exact. He also examined Hubs. What he said was actually making sense to us. In order to get a healthy baby, we have to get our body healthy first. He prescribed us a week medicine (RM166) to get our body up to tiptop condition. But then our body was not in good state. Hubs has been sick for more than a week, and if that is not bad enough, he infected me too. We shall see how after we continue to consume the chinese med, instead of the western med now.

Danger of Vitamin A & E during pregnancy

A small excerpt I took while reading up info on http://www.pregnancy-info.net/ I thought it is good to share with others what Vitamin A & E are all a bout when in pregnancy.

"Vitamin E and Pregnancy
A new research study points out some possibly harmful effects of Vitamin E, stating that high intake of Vitamin E (over 1,500 IU) promotes oxidative damage, which damages cells and speeds their aging process. This could lead to heart disase and cancer. Critics of the recent study say the study is "making something out of nothing for the sake of headlines". Researchers behind the study say that you usually get enough Vitamin E in your diet and taking Vitamin E capsules may be more than you need.

Vitamin A and Pregnancy
Another vitamin that pregnant women shouldn’t overdue it on is vitamin A. In certain forms, this vitamin has been linked to an increased risk in birth defects. There are two forms of vitamin A – betacarotene and retinol. Retinol vitamin A, the type that is found in certain foods like liver, is thought to be dangerous during pregnancy and therefore should be limited to no more than 3,300micrograms per day. Vitamin A in betacarotene form is thought to be safe but discuss the issue with your health care provider to be sure. And if you are taking fish-oil supplements, pay attention to what part of the fish the supplement is produced from.
Any fish supplement that is made from a fish’s liver, like cod liver oil, contains vitamin A in retinol form and therefore should be limited. Supplements that are not derived from fish livers are less likely to have vitamin A in retinol form, but you may want to look for supplements that are specially made for pregnant women to be on the safe side. "